So You Say

You say you'll ride for me until its time to ride.

You say you'll die for me until its time to die.

Words written in sand never in stone

Thought you'd be beside me, yet I stand alone.

Why make the promise, if dont intend to keep?

Causing my heart to panic and weep?

So you say forever, but what does that really mean?

I thought is was from now until and everything in between.

You tell me that you love me but that can only go so far

Since I never get to feel it being that you keep in a jar.

You said you would be there till the very end.

But it's only halftime and I'm already missing a friend.

Funny Ain't It?

there is my uncle who is denying my grandfather as his father and his siblings and I feel my grandfathers pain because he’s the sweetest of sweet then we have the fact that when I need someone to run to I cant find open arms unless its my best friend Jennifer but there is just so much she can handle....then I realized I don’t have the feeling of being needed like that sense of I could tell my problems to someone but its until u tell that certain individual that you feel that problem isn’t as big anymore or you know how to handle it I feel like I'm wanted in the lives of many but needed is questionable to some I feel like my brain is in a constant battle with my heart and my heart is reigning champ. Then you have those times things need to be said but you dont say it in the respect of feelings. but sometimes it could affect the relationship all together. it kills me the lengths people go due to the fact they run off emotion and not logic. how things are misconstrued because of lack of communication and sometimes too much commnunication. it all goes back to that one word...COMMUNICATION!!! Where do i go from here. I mean he cares about me but i cant feel it. thats the worst of all. to not feel the words spoken. damn! im just gonna SCREAM! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
i dont know i dont know. Ha all you really can do is laugh cause the situation will kill you if you dont. its serious and laughing jus keeps me sane. funny aint it?

Brain's All Messed Up

You ever stop and think? Just make everything around you is still because your losing control of your own brain. Things just seem to be getting to hectic. But you just take that one deep breath and you gain your composure. Sometimes when the world is still i find myself screaming at the top of my lung letting all the stress and the weight of the world, im just letting it all out and i tell you it feels good. Thats when i let the earth continue to spin and everything is the same except im feeling a whole lot better with a more sincere smile on my face. Life is great jus gotta know how to handle the bytch. lmfao yea lifes a bytch but im in love with it.

Genesis

Why the title Genesis? Because its the beginning. I always blog but on facebook and myspace. Why not blog on a site made for blogging. Took me a while but its whatever. My best friend Jen inspired me to create one. I read through her life and although I know alot about her there seems to always be room to know more about her. Not that she does this purposely but blogging is str8 from the heart and its easier pouring it out. Any who whats going on in my life...well man i wish i could tell you life is good but life right now is sooooooo confusing. The things going on, the people I'm meeting the friends the foes the family all just a huge ball of confusion. I don't even where to begin attacking the situations at hand. I am thankful though for all this because it will make me stronger in the long run and even though life will always be hard it will never be as hard. Situations will always arise I just need to prepare myself in order to get cleared and out of my conscience. So this is all for now...I'm praying and i feel they are being answered in His time which is perfect even if i wanted it earlier in my life God knows what He wants and what i need. Tune in next time.....signing out, ~Ensa~