Funny Ain't It?

there is my uncle who is denying my grandfather as his father and his siblings and I feel my grandfathers pain because he’s the sweetest of sweet then we have the fact that when I need someone to run to I cant find open arms unless its my best friend Jennifer but there is just so much she can handle....then I realized I don’t have the feeling of being needed like that sense of I could tell my problems to someone but its until u tell that certain individual that you feel that problem isn’t as big anymore or you know how to handle it I feel like I'm wanted in the lives of many but needed is questionable to some I feel like my brain is in a constant battle with my heart and my heart is reigning champ. Then you have those times things need to be said but you dont say it in the respect of feelings. but sometimes it could affect the relationship all together. it kills me the lengths people go due to the fact they run off emotion and not logic. how things are misconstrued because of lack of communication and sometimes too much commnunication. it all goes back to that one word...COMMUNICATION!!! Where do i go from here. I mean he cares about me but i cant feel it. thats the worst of all. to not feel the words spoken. damn! im just gonna SCREAM! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
i dont know i dont know. Ha all you really can do is laugh cause the situation will kill you if you dont. its serious and laughing jus keeps me sane. funny aint it?