Its Never Enough

Its never enough to satisfy my parents. I think their dream is for me to live in a box inisde my house and sit there and make magical money and graduate skoo and get married and live with them forever like i understand what they want but they dont understand the sacrafices needed to made to get there and also I feel they keep forgetting IM YOUNG i make mistakes i learn from them i fall i get up why are they always trying to "protect" i understand how a parent wants the best for the child but you cant live my life for me you can give me advice but you have to let me decide on what i want to do. and everyone who knows me knows when you tell me i cnt do something my urge to do it grows very strong so dont tell me i cnt just tell me i shouldnt or you wouldnt advise it talk to me im human right. dont talk to me like a dog dont talk to me like im 5 years old if im speaking calmly then i dont see the need for you to yell like some wild monkey who got shot 3 times like its not necessary. Sigh* im done!

MAD LATE BUT BETTER THEN NEVER

SO I DEF TOOK MY BRACES AND THOUGHT IT MADE MORE SENSE TO TELL THE WORLD THROUGH TXT INSTEAD OF TELLING THE WORLD THRU BLOG!! SO YEAH NO MORE BRACE FACE IM SOO FREAKIN HAPPY BUT NOW 6 MONTHS OF THIS STUPID RETAINER THEN WILL I FEEL TRUE FREEDOM. I THINK THEYRE NICE BUT WHY DONT YOU BE THE JUDGE?

THERE"S A REASON....JUST WISH I KNEW WHY!

So yesterday I found out my grandfather passed away...like hes gone and im not gonna see him until Jesus comes back for us. I loved that man so much...like he wasnt in America for a year and you would think we grew up with each other thats how quickly we grew this strong bond. He was a friend. And just like that he was taken from me. Im happy he was in my life though. Better to have known him now I will be able to have memories of him for the rest of my life. He was full of wisdom and talk about a man of God. Yep that was him. Im happy my father got to speak him before past. My Grandfather had a stroke and lost his ability to speak and all he could say was mah mah. He was on the phone with my father and he was saying "mah mah" and just kept laughing. He was happy to hear my father. And then he passed away. I feel thats all he needed to hear before he died. I keep trying not to cry...i dont even know why i mean I know it happend but like everytime I talk about it I tear up. But I mean I have a right to I mean he was my friend. But sometimes they are just tears of joy. That man had me dying (bad choice of wording huh lol) ok, nah but he was such a character. Well I mean Im not mad he was able to see America and see things he has never seen got to spend time with many members of the family. I love you Papa. I am def going to miss you.