Paitence Pays?

Tonight he asked me to go for a walk with him. In this way we could talk and get to know each other a lil better. A lil nip but I was down...I mean why not I personally thought it was sweet. So we walked we talked and we laughed then we got to our destination. And I quote, "This is where I come and just admire God's beautiful work. I mean why not you know?" PAUSE....what did he just say....rewind, "?wonk uoy ton yhw naem I .krow lufituaeb s'doG eirmda tsuj dna emoc I erehw si sihT" Play..."This is where I come and just admire God's beautiful work. I mean why not you know?" (lmao im cooked i really took the tyme to write that) but anyways what was he referring to..the stars we looked at the stars, and they were beatiful and he was talking I was just taking it all in like, nice! But I had a good time we headed back and we talked and laughed some more. I dont know what it is, like I know Im taking it like BOOM! But like I have this thing in me something that I havent felt...like I mean he is great but Im still getting to know him and I dont know I feel like.....I dont know I feel like he is here for a reason...like God has been listening well I know God is always listening but my paitence might be paying off but who knows but He? Its a lil upseting because I still have my Cream but now another Coffee is sweetining me up lol but like I said Im not gonna get ahead of myself. Im gonna take it sloooooooooooooooooooooooow I still have that ice box around my heart but tonight I physically felt warmth...it couldve been me sweating from nervousness lmao but Im going to take it as that ice box melting slowly. And I was happy....well enough of the sap.....FOOTBALL yeahhhhhhh!!!! lmao! Ight then well till next time....

Decisions!!!

Decisions have to be made. Like no matter how much we dont want to make one or how distinct it has to be. No matter what a decision has to be made. Whether it is a good idea or a bad idea that is based on the outcome of the situation in which that decision was based upon. Where am I going with this you ask? Absolutely nowhere. Ive already arrived in your brain...so Im in a prediciment where a decision has to made....one that isnt life changing but at the same time is because any decision made changes your life in some form I must say. It involves more then one guy...no im not cheating...but its like this...you have on that can make you feel like a queen but cant give you passion even when kissing....theres one who can make you melt but you have a deep past and thats all that seems to be riding on.... then you have this innocent bystander who is innocently flirting but in his game he treats you like a queen and can make you melt with a hello but you are afraid to open that door and lose the spontaneity of what we have you kno? But who knows....the decision has to be made...but nobody said it had to be now...lol! So in due tyme!

Ive Got You!!!

The world would be a lonely place without the one who puts a smile on my face. But I got you, to make me feel stronger. When the days an upset and and an hour seems much longer. I love you Jennifer, Sara, Gretchen, Malorie, Kate, Blondine, Uncle Ed, Cav, Butta, Uncle Woody, Margaret, Fafa, Jeffly, Elie, Twin, Vladimir, Eldad, Eliezer, Kerlee, Greg, Shasha, like all of you guys. Dont worry I didnt write your name only because I cant think right now..but like seriously like you guys are my hearts in so many different ways yall dont even know. I might not know how to show it or i might show it too much (like theres such thing) but like i said I love you guys. I got you to make me feel better when the nights are long they'll be easier together. Thank You!! I LOVE YA'LL!!!!!

(ill be bloggin soon about everything lol jus gotta sort my brain out but this is the beginning starting with my heart)

Its 2008, Do You Kno Where You Are?

Wow its been a ill min, fair to say? So 2008.....we are only 7 days into it and Im already sure that its gonna be wayyy more interestin then 07. I mean things are happening in my life that Im sure has to happen but Im not really quite sure why they are happening. I mean I have so much to write but I just cant seem to get it out. As I think about it, it all makes sense but as I write it down....nothing. So Im gonna do my best to guide you thru this without losing you! Lol.

Me: I am in my 3rd semester in skoo. I should be in my fourth but im alright i aint mad. At least Im in skoo. I got 3 bs 1 c and a freakin d but like i said im not mad i just need to work a lil harder. My grades have improved and life is going alright I mean I honestly cant complain. I have no boyfriend still..the logic side of me is koo wit that but the emotion side is just a tad bit lonely. But nothing to worry about in due time. Ahh speaking of guys....

Cream: Doing so well...he is a freakin sweetheart but Im not fallin..he might run but if he is strong then he willl know Im only doing this to protect my precious heart. But all in all he could be strong enough to break me down and make me vaulnarable to his rhythmitic heart beat. Who knows but He?

Him: Best friends we are. We have been through some shyt! But his life at the moment doesnt seem to be all that awsome. Doing tyme because his own blood snitched. Not sayin what he was doin was right but I dont know. He lost everything...they took his car, he has no job. Then they give him is car back but 24 hours later he gets in a fatal accident....hits a telephone pole then a tree and another telephone pole. WTF!!! Yeahhh....with God watchin over him....he gets out...his cousin also in the car is alive. I see the car next day and by the looks of it...he shouldnt be alive but he is. God saved him for me. When I saw the car I wanted to cry. But Im too strong for that chill. He is my testimony, his life makes me think about my life and lets me think it couldve been me or it will be me because we are all the same no matter the kind of sin its is worth the same punishment. God your talkin and best believe Im listening. Change begins for the better and continues for the best.

So 2008, your here and Im ready.

Sweetheart....but my heart?

He took me to the movies. Introduced me to his friends and we all went out to eat. 1st date mad fun. We saw Beuwolf in 3d and it was sexy. I like that movie. Hes sweet and and a$shole which makes him well balanced. Great person all in all and yet I cant seem to cave in. Its that wall again... which is great but a lil dangerous because Im really not trying to let him in. Question is am I protecting my heart or am I stallin? Dang this is crazy almost like a dream I mean I always said Cream but never in a million years did I think Id be stirring my coffee. But Im just chilling right now.

Cream Wit My Coffee

hahahahhaa so last night i played some hard body truth or dare. mad freaks at AUC lol but i aint surprised. But n e ways theres this sexy italiano that i got well aquainted with lmao!!! no sex you sickoz!!! but man o man i had mad fun......Truth or Dare Ensa? "DARE" "DARE" the whole freakin night. i waznt punkin out lol and boy am i glad i didnt lmao. But anyways im done with skoo and i am ready to have the xmas break of a lifetime.....cream with my coffee.....hahaha how do i come up with these things?

IM HAPPY I PROMISE!!!!

So lately ive been getting in trouble because my blogs are too sad. So happier vibes. Skoo is over!!!! I love my best friends Jennifer Sara and Vladi. I love my closest friends Malorie, Kate. I love my booboo and the love of my life Gretchen. I love being a part of such a great movement, Trey Deuce. Life is going well and i cant wait till everyone comes back so i can laugh as much as i used to so i can chill with yall until yall cant stand to look at me. I love the fact that i have friends who care for me to the point they cuss me out to get happy. I am happy and i am grateful. I love life. And i love you!!!! MWA MWA MWA MWA MWA!!! Your probably like wow shes whiling but your smiling. So keep smiling and pass it on its contagious!!!