IM BACK!

LOL so i havent blogged in a very good while. Update on my life since we last took a peek in it...ummmmm Im in my 3rd year of college yay me! Um my boring school in the woods is filled with drama...makes life in the woods not so boring after all just as long as the drama isnt aimed towards me and my Goons lol. Um at the end of last semester there was drama in the house, and as much as I hate drama! I was naive to think a house full of girls there would be no drama. But in my defense it was really going well its just some people cant live without drama. No drama no life, its sad but the case is far from rare. But that got situated, well thats a lie, it got placed under the rug. Um Paitence is still around although a lil off (thats a blog in its self) but skoo is still fun, I have a really really good friend thats here, like my bestie (Not a Jeni but still qualifies) I call him Unit. He's too cool for skool and he also makes school a great place to be and Tanya my roomate also know is Ivory keeps me sane in this small @s$ apartment. I am seriously trying this blog thing this year because my brain has ran out of room. Since there is so much to say and I havent blogged in a while I will not overwhelm you with details all in one sitting and that way I can somewhat be consistant with my blogging. So take # 457382083...ACTION! 09 is just that year...

Its Never Enough

Its never enough to satisfy my parents. I think their dream is for me to live in a box inisde my house and sit there and make magical money and graduate skoo and get married and live with them forever like i understand what they want but they dont understand the sacrafices needed to made to get there and also I feel they keep forgetting IM YOUNG i make mistakes i learn from them i fall i get up why are they always trying to "protect" i understand how a parent wants the best for the child but you cant live my life for me you can give me advice but you have to let me decide on what i want to do. and everyone who knows me knows when you tell me i cnt do something my urge to do it grows very strong so dont tell me i cnt just tell me i shouldnt or you wouldnt advise it talk to me im human right. dont talk to me like a dog dont talk to me like im 5 years old if im speaking calmly then i dont see the need for you to yell like some wild monkey who got shot 3 times like its not necessary. Sigh* im done!

MAD LATE BUT BETTER THEN NEVER

SO I DEF TOOK MY BRACES AND THOUGHT IT MADE MORE SENSE TO TELL THE WORLD THROUGH TXT INSTEAD OF TELLING THE WORLD THRU BLOG!! SO YEAH NO MORE BRACE FACE IM SOO FREAKIN HAPPY BUT NOW 6 MONTHS OF THIS STUPID RETAINER THEN WILL I FEEL TRUE FREEDOM. I THINK THEYRE NICE BUT WHY DONT YOU BE THE JUDGE?

THERE"S A REASON....JUST WISH I KNEW WHY!

So yesterday I found out my grandfather passed away...like hes gone and im not gonna see him until Jesus comes back for us. I loved that man so much...like he wasnt in America for a year and you would think we grew up with each other thats how quickly we grew this strong bond. He was a friend. And just like that he was taken from me. Im happy he was in my life though. Better to have known him now I will be able to have memories of him for the rest of my life. He was full of wisdom and talk about a man of God. Yep that was him. Im happy my father got to speak him before past. My Grandfather had a stroke and lost his ability to speak and all he could say was mah mah. He was on the phone with my father and he was saying "mah mah" and just kept laughing. He was happy to hear my father. And then he passed away. I feel thats all he needed to hear before he died. I keep trying not to cry...i dont even know why i mean I know it happend but like everytime I talk about it I tear up. But I mean I have a right to I mean he was my friend. But sometimes they are just tears of joy. That man had me dying (bad choice of wording huh lol) ok, nah but he was such a character. Well I mean Im not mad he was able to see America and see things he has never seen got to spend time with many members of the family. I love you Papa. I am def going to miss you.

Wanna Know A Secret?

SKOO IS OVA!! OMG ITS OVER 2 YEARS DOWN!!! O MAN I DONT WANNA GO BACK BUTTTTTTT I GOTTA SO THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME SURVIVE ANOTHER YEAR!!!

Get Well Soon!

GET BETTER NOW GRETCHEN AND JEN DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT GETTING SICK!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS MWA!!!

Do We Know What We Want?

Men say, women seem to never know what they want, Not tru, its a fact that sometimes they know what they want but they can't get it and since they cnt get what they want it may seem to brush off as an undecisive female when in reality she is stuck, stuck in a world where she wants to be free, wants to be able to love like no othe.r And men they usually kno what they want and they go after it full force and tries their hardest to get to that woman's heart but if a gurl decided to do that she's all of a sudden crazy clingy or a stalker.The ways of this world and being raised by society we think love is suppose to be something perfect and in the relationship partners aren't suppose to have flaws or make mistakes. Like I am starting to learn that love itself is a mistake. Now when you think mistake you think of it in a negative way but that's not always true. Mistakes are lessons in disguise and lessons are what make life the way it is. Lessons create the wise and the wise create a a clear road. It takes work to create a stable love but the road isn't easy as we know but if you work hand in hand nothing else matters. The crazy things caused by love, the happy moments the sad moments the angry moments all created by love makes this four letter word so powerful. Some tend to mistake lust for love. Very simple and easy mistake. When you catch yourself wanting to be with someone only for physical features and activities then realize love has nothing to do with it. So when you fall in love make sure you know that if you fall I was the one who pushed you lmfao no suh ahh i love ruining the moment nah but if you fall someone will always be there to catch you.